it’s like that itch you just can’t scratch… it’s coming for a while and I’m pretty sure he knows it too!!! things havent been alright in a long time… I don’t know what to do to make it like it used to be!! I’ve felt lost for so long now and I don’t know how to find my way back again. everything moved way too fast; I guess I liked the idea...
-sigh- why oh why do people tell me things when it’s too late!! kind of makes me wonder how things would be :/
as much as I like the way I am, I’ve decided I need to lose weight! I just want to be the one people call beautiful for once… I hate the looks I get from certain people; especially the ones who are meant to love me! so yes ive gotten it into my head that if i lose weight I won’t have to feel I have to compete with others… there’s a few around I know I have to...
trying to breathe!!! Kristin is keeping me calm and away from any form of alcohol… still doesn’t stop the fact I’m stressed and worried that he’ll find someone who he actually wants to be with! I hate that I feel like he is just with me till he finds someone better! I don’t believe anything that I’m being told at the moment cause I feel he’s hiding...
and the bad mood sets in… get ready for a bumpy ride bitches it’s about to get nasty!!!
trying not to be sad… failing miserably and I know it!! I hate feeling alone :( trying not too worry and holding back tears at the same time proves difficult for me!!! sigh….
bdjdkdjshshs I just want to slap someone right now I’m so angry and upset/frustrated etc etc etc I need a drink!
I hope Kristin doesn’t cancel on me! I’m going to need her tomorrow night to keep me in one piece… I know I’ll be moody as it is and my replys to his messages won’t be all that nice… I think she knows something is up though with me getting her to come over though, she’s ready for my tears that will happen! I’ll probably fall alseep crying in her...
and I state again… trust issues! fml
ok I’ll egmit it… I am having some major fucking trust issues right now! it’s sad I asked my best friend to keep me sane next week so I don’t freak out or do anything stupid like last time!!! it’ll be good to spend time with her; means I’ll get a lot of my chest that I keep thinking that is building up again! but sad that I have such little trust!!
Reblog if your sleeping schedule is fucked up.
hmmmm I can be somewhat of a jealous bitch… obviously I’ve known this for a while but damn I have a way of showing it! suppose it’s better to show your true emotions than keep them hidden but at times it’s pointless when the issues gets ignored to avoid disagreements! eh either way I’m sleepy!!!
I don’t see how she can say all that about me, call me names and accuse me of changing him! I’ve done jack shit to make him change… I don’t even know this chick and shes acting like she owns him! I want to give up on this sometimes, it goes good for a while than something OR should I say someone comes along and fucks it up! how does she get the right to dictact our...
so would you be comfortable with your best friend messaging your boyfriend/girlfriend and vise versa! doesn’t matter if its from Facebook or actually text! but either way I don’t see how anybody could be comfortable with that… it would frustrate me and ruin part of the trust I have in my relationship!
I could smack certain people right now; and they know it too!
fucking screw today? im over everything and everyone!
doesn’t feel like Christmas this year! im usually excited by now but I don’t feel it anymore… shame I use to love Christmas!